there is too much to what i have to say. i have a bad handwriting and thus i am gonna post it here. not that many ppl actually visited this blog so i guess its alright. Many thanks for the past 5 month which you tolerated tremendous bullshit from me and my attitude. I really hope that time will rewind and correct my mistake. But whats done is done. I could now only stand far away from you and could not have you in my arm anymore. I hope that someone will be able to and that special someone will be able to look after you and care for you, as I do not have the rights to do so. If you're seeing this, do not cry, as I am really not that type that is worth crying for. Many things had happen in the past months, but this relationship is the most serious one in my entire life. And I doubt that there will be anymore relationship in the future that will be like this. If you're afraid that someone will see this, pls drop me a sms so that I will remove the blog. But I am still sorry for the hurt I had caused you. I admit I was wrong to do all these kind of things. But now, since we're heading to different institution or polys, there is not chance that we could bump into one another again. However, if your future boyfriend bully you, do drop me a sms so that I WILL FUCK HIS LIFE. This 5 months had its up and downs, but to me, its unlike any relationship I had before. I really want you to be happy again even if it means having another boyfriend. Thats all I really wanted...
I'm sorry that I will have to ignore your texts etc as I really could not bring myself to reply you. Shit happens, but life goes on. So does my love for you.
I must admit though, you are actually far too good for me. There is actually more guys with better qualifications than me and I am sure that you will find your true love, as long you are happy being with him. To sum it all up, I just want you to be happy...
I really cannot make myself fall for other ppl again, if you are another person reading this, get this in your head.
To be honest, this is the actual time i felt my heart break, yea, you did another ''first thing'' to me, even after the break up. So please, just promise me one thing, be happy. I hope it isn't too much for you, and find someone to continue my job of being a punchbag, naggy fellow, entertainer, and most importantly, a boyfriend, that is far more capable than me. Wish you all the best in these upcoming years. On 19 oct 2010, I gave my heart to you, and on this date, you gave it back. But too bad, Im heartless, I am not gonna accept my heart back from you. Remember the most important thing about relationship, BE HAPPY. And I had the most happy time in my life, even when I actually failed my O levels but as long as I am with you, I feel happy. That is all I have to say, goodbye and, I Love You.
P.S: You always wondered whether I'll cry or not, Yes I did, And I think that my tears and not even enough for me to cry another time, so most likely you are the last to make me cry